Effed up

on the day after Easter i have had ups and downs....with talking with sickie ester while i am driving to get food (almost crashed several times), to getting mad at my sister, to relaxing on my half day at work. oddly enough i would be the middle mess i am, dealing with the good and the bad and still seem to show no signs of their weight. i believe really cause they barely hold any if little at all.

but i remember posting under movies that i like ones that make me feel. and you won't really understand what i am saying till we speak in person and i can translate my odd self. but i just finished watching Crash....gotta say i cried three different times...and by the end of the movie i tell you what....(best redneck voice) i was feeling! and oh brother my mind starts to race with the pondering of what i just saw...thus as my brother says i go girlish. can't really help it cause well as i tell him I'm part girl. if you know me which you should or why else are you reading this...you know I'm not like anybody you know....OK well maybe the silly parts remind you of a cousin or something. but that's not what i am talking about. eh i think as of right now my brain lost why the heck i was writing this blog.....*Warning this has beginning happening alot since i have been a slave to work* i guess in the end i am just glad i am loving person first and a fire breather last.

OK just stop reading i am totally lost as to what i am doing hence why i am effed up.